I have been trying to do daily prompts when I have nothing else to write about. I love that the prompts can lead back to reading and writing in the sense of what I am trying to do with my blog. I can usually lead it back to the theme of this blog, sometimes I just like to talk. Today, I didn’t really care about the prompt. It seems too logical for my daydreaming brain. I tried to talk about the laws of gravity or the laws of attraction, which are great, but I was not feeling it today.

Instead, I wanted to ramble on about how there are never enough hours in the day! I have so much going on in my life right now. I love it and hate it all at the same time. I love it because I am doing everything I love to do. I hate it because it reminds me how limited my time is in one day. I will even be honest and let you all in on a little secret, I am a doom scroller. I get on TikTok or Facebook and just scroll. I am not looking for anything or waiting for anything, I am just wasting what little time I have. Sometimes I have so much going on that I doom scroll as a way to avoid all the things I need to do.

I want to try a week without being on my phone so much. I have other things to do. I am painting a poem onto a canvas for my therapist, as well as painting for my mom and one for my cousin. I am trying to read as much as possible, write, learn to paint and draw other things, and train a dog that will be a year old next month! There is so much to do and so little time.

I guess the real question I should be asking is if I am actually trying. Am I really giving it my all? If you look at my screen time on my phone you will see where my time goes. How does one spend almost 5 hours on her phone when she is “trying to (insert task) as much as possible?”

The answer to the problem is blaring in my face in the form of the light from the screen on my phone. I have a problem, an addiction to always having my phone in my hand. I know I am not the only one with the problem, I know there are so many people in the world that have this problem. I need to fix my own problem. I need to set reminders to get off the phone, stop playing the games and get back to work! I have dreams and goals to achieve and if I continue to let my phone rule me, I will never get there.

As with any addiction, it will be hard to break. I feel as though it may be even harder when part of my dream involves me being online and interacting with the world, but maybe if I am not using my phone to do that, or maybe if I am limiting access to certain apps (mainly Tiktok) I can take back my time and be more efficient. I know that I feel better about myself and feel more accomplished on days I do not use my phone as much. It’s time to step away and defeat this demon. Get back to reading more than I sleep and writing more than I breathe.

My phone has killed my creativity. I won’t get rid of it…it has an AMAZING camera, but were are going to have to give each other space. We need time apart. My phone battery will thank me for it, as will my brain when it is not rotting out of my head from all the mindless, mind-numbing, eye-searing entertainment.

Do you have a problem with a phone addiction? Did you have a problem with phone addiction and fix it? How do I rebalance a healthy relationship with my phone and get back those hours of my day I could use doing other things!?