I might have forgotten about my blog for a minute. I didn’t forget about it as much as my brain just couldn’t process anything. I didn’t want to put my focus anywhere at all. I couldn’t even get a lot of writing done. I think maybe it was a little fog of depression trying to make camp where it didn’t belong.

I want to say that I was busy with other things and that I was distracted by other parts of life. I will be honest with the few of you that read my blog, I was playing a game. I was trying to check out of life and all the crap going on and the only thing that kept me from feeling like the world was caving in around me was playing Stardew Valley. Yes…I know how lame I sound. At least it wasn’t Sims this time.

I am trying to get myself back on track. In order to get back on track, I have set myself some deadlines for the current story I am working on. I love the story so much and after hitting 24k words over the weekend I feel like it is going in the right direction. I am a pantser/plotter. Meaning, I will start the story as a panster and start plotting as the story gets going. I got about 37 pages into my current story before I stopped and started reading back what I had. I had hit a bit of a wall and honestly didn’t know what I had said happened, who was who, what was what. It was a mess.

Over the weekend I hit 45 pages. 45 new pages. I used the 37 pages before to get some ideas straight and wrote a whole new 45 pages. The best part is that these 45 pages are JUST NOW hitting parts that are in the 37 pages from before. So I have 37 pages of ideas to add to the new 45. Honestly, this is going to be my best story yet. This is going to be my breakthrough story. The book that gets me on the map. I don’t know what it is about this story, but as it progresses and I figure out more things, I just love it so much.

I am having so much fun writing this story and I think about it all the time. I am creating dialog in my head as I am driving to work, trying to remember the really good parts for when I can get back to my computer to write them down. I am finding plot holes and filling them. I have a whole system set up in Microsoft One Note just to keep up with all the pieces. I might even share my setup one day because I personally think it is genius.

My first deadline is June 25th just to have the first draft finished. I don’t know how long it should take to edit a book or how many times I need to edit it. I have other things to figure out as well. Do I want to query or do I want to self-publish? If I self-publish there is a whole other slew of questions I have to figure out. It is so much to figure out, but right now I am just going to keep my head on straight because I know this story I am working on is going to be a good one and it would be a shame not to share it with the world.